Spirit Science

night

The wind began to blow, twisting little eddies of snow. Bern walked across the clearing in snowshoes, headed for the treeline. The night was empty; there was a full moon.

Bern’s cabin materialized out of the darkness between the tree branches. Red curtains, lit from within. On the porch, Bern took off the snowshoes and knocked them together over the shrubs nearby. Unlocking the door, Bern stepped inside.

The embers of a fire crackled in the potbelly stove. Bern fed the fire and used a brand to light the fireplace. She took off her boots, hat and coat, and let them dry in front of the flames.

The fire faltered and Bern felt a chill. She looked around, and saw that the window was open. Snow dusted that corner of the carpet. “I don’t remember opening that, but then again, maybe I did,” Bern thought.

Bern put the kettle down and went to the window. A sharp prickle spiked across the back of her neck: a woman was standing there.

A yard from the window, a woman of no more than 30, in snow pants and a white winter coat, with a fur-rimmed hood, peered at Bern. “I’m sorry to scare you,” she said, “My name is Jerri.”

Blood continued to pound in Bern’s ears, “Are you lost?”

“I seem to have taken a wrong turn too many,” she laughed.

“Well, come in, you’re not going to make it to wherever you are going in this cold.” Bern said, heart still clattering along. It was the hospitable thing to do.

“That’s kind of you,” she said, “I came down off the foothills and lost my map in the wind. It’s been a pretty bad trip, to say the least.”

Bern went around to the front door, and the woman followed, “These woods are like a maze. Many people have gotten injured out here,” Bern said, “Wouldn’t want you to get hurt.”

Jerri came to the door, as Bern unlocked it, “I’ve sprained my ankle out here before. Thankfully, I had a homing beacon,” she said, “I don’t have it tonight.”

“That must be terrifying for you,” Bern responded.

Bern gestured for her to take a seat by the fire. Once she sat on the hearth-rug, Bern put one of the blankets from the bunk bed around her shoulders. “Thank you,” she said.

Jerri’s pack, which was heavy, was placed by the door. Bern resumed making chamomile tea, this time for two.

When the tea had finished steeping, Bern joined her with two mugs on the rug.

“Why are you out here?” Jerri asked.

“To take in the sights,” Bern said, “But really, to get over my ex.”

“What a remote place to do it!” Jerri exclaimed.

“Yes, I bought this cabin not long after college. I was in the outing club, so it was only natural.”

“That’s nice,” Jerri said, genuinely interested.

The log crackled and sunk. Tomorrow, Bern would chop more wood to put in the shed behind the cabin.

“Why are you out here?” Bern wondered.

Jerri smiled shyly, “You wouldn’t believe what I found.”

Confused, but comfortable by the fire, Bern said, “Try me.”

Jerri set her mug down and jumped up with a speed that amazed Bern. She crossed the cabin floor and opened her pack. Opening some sort of case inside, she pulled out a large slab of dark red meat, still trailing lines of fat. Bern recoiled instinctively.

“Out here, is the best meat I can find!” Jerri exclaimed. It was then that Bern noticed her teeth were a little bit longer than normal.

mad trapping

Songs
Underoath, “Returning Empty Handed”
SEITHEN – PO$$E (Intro) 
$OUDIERE – HORROR

Karmic Pinball

seven homunculi

The morning traffic snaked through Midtown, choking at various points around Grand Central. Alli moved down the street, partially carried by the crowd. It was late spring, an uncommonly warm day. Alli had put a sweater on over a button-up shirt, instead of wearing a coat. Holding a messenger bag, Alli pulled into Starbucks.

Alli ordered a macchiato and sat at the bar in front of the window. The people passed by on their way to work, school, somewhere.

Alli pulled her laptop out of her messenger bag and went to work on the budget worksheets. She did not realize Aspen had sat down beside her.

“Busy, aren’t you?” Aspen said, with a tall flat white in her hand.

Alli looked up, distracted, “Oh, I didn’t see you there.”

“Sometimes, I wander in here, on the weekends.”

“I can’t believe I have never seen you,” Alli laughed.

“Well, with that kind of focus, you probably would not have,” Aspen joked in return.

Alli smiled and closed the Dell, “There – now you have my undivided attention.”

The two watched the constant tableau outside the window for a moment. The light changed, the taxi cabs raced Downtown. People in pea coats, also holding coffees, strode determinedly to unknown locations.

“Are you and Jan still together?” Aspen asked.

“No,” Alli said, “We decided our relationship couldn’t handle the distance.”

“She’s still back in Florida?”

Alli nodded and took a sip of her coffee.

“What about this new woman you are with?” Aspen said.

“Dallas?” “Yeah.”

Alli tamped down her enthusiasm, ” She’s a powerful psychic – and a great dancer.”

Aspen grinned in return, “Do you think she is the one?”

“She definitely knows what she’s doing,” Alli said, “She’s confident and has a way with money.”

“Where do you see yourselves going?”

Alli thought for a moment, “First, we’ll take care of the psychical experiment. Then we will move toward readying our research for Nature.”

“It sounds like, ‘full speed ahead.'” Aspen said.

“I think it could really work,” Alli nodded.

“Let me know if you need anything,” Aspen offered, ” A Tarot deck blessed by my guru. Anything.”

“You’re very kind. I have been practicing with my Zener deck every day.” Alli said.

“I should get going,” Aspen said, “Kaan is coming in; I need to open up the bookstore.”

“How is Kaan?” Alli wondered.

“Rambunctious as always. Can’t stop getting into trouble on that bike.”

“Are you sure about this one?”

“I take things as they come,” Aspen said, “I am just amazed by her energy.”

“How did you two meet?” Alli asked.

Aspen walked down the street. Chain link fence. Bills posted on brick walls. She passed an alley, full of black garbage bags. A figure lay tangled in the mess. Alli was afraid to get closer – and then the person, a woman, groaned.

“Online,” Aspen said.

Alli knew she had lied, but didn’t press the issue. “Stop by my house next weekend,” she said.

“Sounds like a plan,” Aspen smiled, “Will do!”

Aspen pulled on her camel skin coat and sauntered out of the store in her black heels.

***

At home, in the high rise, Alli sat on the couch, in her sweater and buttoned-up shirt, waiting for Dallas to get home from NYU’s lab, so they could go to a social function at the Yale Club.

Alli stared at the TV. It was off. Herself, in khakis and Sperry Top-Siders, sat, reflected at her. She got up and looked out the floor-to-ceiling windows. An insect under a glass.

Jan and Alli used to catch grasshoppers in the fields and frogs in the creek. Alli remembered staring up at the ceiling, at night, Jan lying beside her.

The front door opened, and Dallas came in, tossing her keys on the foyer table. “Are you ready, honey?” she called out.

Alli spun around, “Yes!” she said from the living room.

“Order the Uber; I’m going to take a quick shower,” Dallas said, moving toward the master bedroom.

Alli pulled her phone out of her pants pocket and opened the app, but her mind was out in the Keys, white sand, Daiquiris. Jan lying on a striped beach towel. “Have I made a mistake?” she thought.

The last alumni get-together on the rooftop terrace had left Alli with a great deal of anxiety. She was the introverted one, and internally squirmed at being introduced to that faculty member and this research adviser. The elevator ride back down had not been pleasant. “Staring at the skyline, with a drink in your hand, is not socializing!” Dallas had said. Alli briefly considered saying she had a stomach flu.

Dallas came out of the bathroom in a robe, still toweling her long, blond hair. She caught Alli staring a hole in the wall and said, “If you don’t want to go, I can go and be right back. You don’t have to go, if you don’t want to.”

insomnia sleep deprivation mask

Songs and Albums:

U2, “Mysterious Ways”

Cosmastly, “Back from the Dead Vol. I” (album)

SEITHEN, “PO$$E (Intro)”

feeneyyy feat. absolute-terror, “LADO OSCURO”