Soft Girlfriend

gamecube, yes

The stars poked through the clouds. Alli stepped outside of her seaside cabana, with the thatch roof, and went down the steps to the beach. The gray waves, flecked with foam, reached the beach from some unknown shore. The black ocean of the night held on to its secrets.

Alli walked down the beach in the direction of an assortment of lights. The wind caressed her shoulders. She twirled her key ring around one finger. Mallo’s Mini-Mart on the island was open 24-7. Why not get some eggs for tomorrow? Some soy milk?

The half-moon hung like a silver plate in the sky. The sand, gray in the moonlight, latched onto her toes in the sandals. Hermit crabs curled away, hiding themselves out of sight. This vacation was courtesy of Xen. The plate of bananas, piled high, on the cabana’s glass dining table. The terry cloth bathrobes. The complementary jacuzzi. All of it.

They had barbecued hamburgers and bratwurst that afternoon, at the resort party. People had jet-skied up and down the shore, throwing up white waves of spray.

At night, the jungle was quiet. Occasionally, there was the rustling of leaves and quivering underbrush. The night felt alive, trembling on the edge of a knife.

The mini-mart swam into view, its bright bulbs welcoming in the harsh darkness of the AM. A few late-night party-goers still wandered around, sitting at the tables outside, stewing over mango smoothies constantly stabbed with red straws.

Alli went into the store, a cat’s bell announcing the presence of another shopper. Like a 7-Eleven, off the shoulder of a freeway, the store was still packed. A guy in a leather biker’s jacket, stood flipping through People.

Cartons of eggs lay in the refrigerator aisle, all lined up behind the glass, next to roast turkey and coffee creamer. Alli opened the door and picked up a carton. Just as she was straightening up, to close the door, she caught sight of someone in a lurid Hawaiian shirt and slightly distressed, acid-washed jean shorts, with earlobe-length lionesque orange hair. Her heart jumped for a moment; the woman turned to open an adjacent glass door and get out some milk and Alli’s heart stopped pounding. It wasn’t Nealy. Just a look-alike.

The line was relatively short. Alli stood behind someone in a wife beater and a bike chain necklace, with the eggs and a packet of gum she had also picked up. The cashier, sporting a neckbeard, rang up her items. Back outside in the warmth of the darkness, now holding a plastic bag, Alli let her chest unclench. She strolled over the sand, back toward the cabana, rigged up with cable and super-fast Wi-Fi.

She didn’t notice the person in the Hawaiian shirt until she was right up alongside her and caught her left elbow. Alli looked around, startled.

“I’m sorry to scare you,” the lionesque person said, “We’re on the same cruise.”

Alli laughed, “I only heard the waves; I never heard your footfalls.”

“I take jiu-jitsu and other martial arts,” Lion said, by way of explanation, shrugging her shoulders.

“What’s your name?” Alli said. She was still confused but relaxed her shoulders.

“Ran,” said the lion, putting her hands in her shorts pockets.

Alli rubbed the back of her neck, “Well, you can’t come sneaking up on me like that, Ran. What if I knew judo?”

Ran, grinned, looking more like a wolf than a lion here, “I guess I would have to best you in a fight.”

“Lucky for you, I don’t know how to fight,” Alli said.

“Where is your cabana?” Ran wondered, kicking at the sand.

“It’s in that direction,” Alli gestured with the bag of eggs, “But why do you want to know? What if someone is there already?”

Another wolf-like grin, “If that were so, it wouldn’t explain how you were looking at me in Mallo’s.”

Alli smiled, “You are pretty sure of yourself. I got you mixed up with someone else.”

Ran looked up from scrutinizing her fingernails, “The question is, who?”

“You don’t have to worry about that,” Alli smirked, “I bid you goodnight.”

“OK, take care,” the lion waved. She moseyed off back in the direction of the mini-mart and the clubs.

Alli’s smile faded. The sea breeze ruffled her dress shirt. The sweat on the back of her neck cooled. If she didn’t squint, if the moonlight were coming in at a different angle, she would have sworn it was Nealy, ambling back to the store, meandering back in time.

The white caps broke, pounding the sand. The palm trees stood silently, island sentinels, staring backward, far across the sea.

food to go

Songs:

MGMT – Electric Feel

The Rolling Stones – Get Off of My Cloud

Daft Punk – Something About Us

All of Everything

moving on

Xen and Alli walked down the boardwalk. The beach ran parallel to them. The street fair was in full swing. Venders were selling cotton candy and huge, warm pretzels. Lights were strung up, all along the thoroughfare. People strolled and strode the length of the promenade. The night brought a much-needed respite from the day’s summer heat.

They sat down on a bench under a large tree. Paper lanterns hung from a few lower branches. Xen put her hand in Alli’s. Her hair floated briefly in the night’s first breeze. Alli could hear the waves lapping greedily at the shore, before receding and heading back out into the bay.

“So, you’re going to stay in New York?” Xen asked.

Alli nodded, “I am going to open up a restaurant.”

“What kind of restaurant?” Xen wondered.

“Italian-Asian fusion,” Alli joked.

“I’m serious!” Xen said.

Alli looked up. A shadow had crossed their path. Nealy was blocking the street lamp light.

“Oh hi, I didn’t see you two there!” Nealy said, “How are you?”

Xen and Alli got up. Alli shook Nealy’s hand and hugged her. She turned to Xen, “Xen, this is Nealy. Nealy, this is Xen.”

“A pleasure to meet you,” Nealy said.

“No, really,” Xen laughed, “The pleasure is mine.”

Nealy, looked between them, “How did you two meet?”

Alli hooked her thumbs in her belt loops, “Oh, you know – Labyrinth.”

“Ah yes,” Nealy chuckled, “The old watering hole.”

“Do you want to grab a coffee with us?” Xen added “I’d love to learn more about you. Alli speaks highly of you.”

Nealy smiled, bemused, “She does? Well, look, I just got off from work, so I could use a bite to eat.”

A taxi ride later, they all sat in Costa Coffee, drinking a round of dirty chai.

“What do you do for a living?” Nealy asked Xen.

“I manage restaurants, like Nobu and Noma,” Xen said, sipping her tea.

“What an amazing job,” Nealy said. Turning to Alli, she said, “And you just ran into her at Labyrinth?”

“It was a rainy day. The clientele must have been different,” Alli shrugged.

“And what happens next?” Nealy said, with a bit of mischief.

Xen and Alli looked at each other. “I don’t know,” Alli laughed.

Xen also laughed, “I was telling her about my cabin upstate.”

“A magic cabin,” Nealy grinned.

“Well, summer isn’t going to last forever,” Alli said.

“You’re welcome to come too, Nealy,” Xen said.

“I will consider it,” Nealy said, getting up, “Especially, if there’s barbeque.”

They caught separate taxis, Xen and Alli, headed to Alli’s apartment in Midtown, and Nealy, heading home, to Williamsburg.

“See you around Nealy,” Xen said, “Great to meet you!”

“We have to catch up some time,” Alli said, opening the taxi door for Xen.

“Of course!” Nealy said, getting in her cab, “Just text me.”

As Nealy’s taxi pulled away, Alli couldn’t help feeling a pang of guilt. But she pushed the sadness down below, into her gut. She walked around the car, to her door.

when i am home

Songs

コンシャスTHOUGHTS:

All night (feat. ローマン Roman)

BACKWHEN:

Dynasty (feat. Watermane)